101 thoughts keeping me awake : Part One

      Having a mind buzzing with thoughts all the time, it is very difficult for me to know exactly what I want or need. And the best way to declutter that mess, I figured, is to put it in writing.
And so the list begins:

1.       Should I sleep?

2.       I slept in the afternoon though.

3.       Am I hungry?

4.       Wow the room is actually pretty small.

5.       I should clean my table.

6.       Let me play some music.

7.       Wow. That’s a lot of kpop and drama osts in my playlist.

8.       Why am I addicted to Kdramas!?

9.       But I admit, the actor was really cute. ;)

10.   What is the life of an actor like?

11.   They get good food every day.

12.   They can order-in almost anything.

13.   They have personal shoppers and trainers.

14.   Do they fall in love with their co-stars?

15.   What is love?

16.   Something we give and take almost every day without realizing it ourselves.

17.   I love dogs. And a few people. And all kinds of food.

18.   Food! There isn’t any in my tummy and in this dingy room.

19.   I should really get some sleep.

20.   But wait, if she loved him so much and he did the same, why didn’t they just say it to each other?

21.   Oh wait, then the series would be over in 2 episodes. XD

22.   These movies and series set up such high standards and wrong notions about love.

23.   Nobody follows you around.

24.   Nobody waits for you in the rain.

25.   Nobody writes a letter anymore.

26.   Does the post office still exist?

27.   I don’t even know how to post a letter.

28.   Because emails and texts rule our world.

29.   But I know there are still some old souls out there who believe in writing.

30.   How do you identify old souls?

31.   First, they don’t show themselves out that much.

32.   Look carefully and you’ll find them watching and observing people.

33.   They are amazing listeners by the way.

34.   And their small advices speak volumes.

35.   They are the kind of people you will find staring at the sea, watching the waves play with their toes.

36.   I like how the waves come and take away the ground beneath your feet.

37.   For me, it signifies that time keeps moving and if you don’t move along, then you’ll find yourself buried under the ruins of time.

38.   Time really is a funny thing. The more you wish for it to go slow, the more it rushes by.

39.   I remember a poem about time. What was it called? Oh yes. Ozymandias.

40.    “The hand that mocked them, and the heart that fed.” Somehow, I have never forgotten that line.

41.   School taught me a lot by teaching me lessons subconsciously.

42.   College taught me a lot by throwing lessons right on my face. (Still is!)

43.   I should REALLY sleep.

44.   Weekends are always short-lived. Just like happiness.

45.   What is happiness? (The most common question with the most uncommon answers)

46.   Happiness for me, right now, is waking up in the morning without any alarm ringing its way into my sleep. (Sigh.)

47.   I really should change my alarm tone. I don’t want everyone else waking up except me.

48.   I want to spend a day without my phone. Just eat, sleep, talk, write, doodle and read.

49.   That reminds me, there are new novels of my favourite genre in the library. :D

50.   Let me go ask my neighbor for food.

                                                          

                                                                                                       (To be continued.)